Holding my negative emotion! That was what I was doing for many years. I kept telling myself I am strong so I can take anything without being angry. I learned to cry under the shower because it felt comfortable as the water would wash away my tears and no one including myself would see it. I kept my anger in for the fear of being rejected and hide any visible frustration. I kept quiet when I was sad because I believed that people would judge me and look at me as a negative pe